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Tuesday, December 23rd, 2008
5:48 pm	Okay LJ land, I know its been awhile But I'll be out across the country for about two months, so if you I'm near you I expect to see you. Dec 26 2008 7:00P Steven Tyler’s Summer Home Rochester, New York Dec 27 2008 8:00P The Stolen Sleeves Collective Brooklyn, New York Dec 28 2008 8:00P Bagel Czar Richmond, Virginia Dec 29 2008 8:00P St. Simon and St. Jude Episcopal Church Irmo, South Carolina Dec 30 2008 8:00P This is For You Fest - The Black Box Collective Orlando, Florida Dec 31 2008 1:00P Klein Dance Studio Lake Worth, Florida Jan 1 2009 8:00P Transitions Tampa, Florida Jan 2 2009 8:00P Doozer’s Pub Jacksonville, Florida Jan 3 2009 8:00P MJQ Atlanta, Georgia Jan 4 2009 8:00P The New Cave 9 Birmingham, Alabama Jan 6 2009 8:00P The Junction Houston, Texas Jan 7 2009 8:00P The Compound Corpus Christi, Texas Jan 8 2009 8:00P The Warhol San Antonio, Texas Jan 9 2009 8:00P Red 7 Austin, Texas Jan 12 2009 8:00P Music Trader San Diego, California Jan 13 2009 8:00P The Pharoahs Den Riverside, California Jan 14 2009 8:00P Tba in Los Angeles Los Angeles, California Jan 15 2009 8:00P Tba in Las Vegas Las Vegas, Nevada Jan 16 2009 8:00P The CYC (Chinatown Youth Center) Fresno, California Jan 17 2009 8:00P Temescal Arts Center Oakland, California Jan 18 2009 8:00P The Branch Ave House Sacremento, California Jan 19 2009 8:00P The Eyeball Reno, Nevada Jan 20 2009 8:00P The Thunderdome Redding, California Jan 21 2009 8:00P Arctic Circle Pit Portland, Oregon Jan 22 2009 8:00P Tba in Olympia Olympia, Washington Jan 23 2009 8:00P West Seattle Legion Hall Seattle, Washington Jan 24 2009 8:00P Tba in Spokane Spokane, Washington Jan 25 2009 8:00P TBA in Vancouver Vancouver, British Columbia Jan 26 2009 8:00P Tba in Tacoma Tacoma, Washington Jan 27 2009 8:00P Satyricon Portland, Oregon Jan 28 2009 8:00P Tba in Chico Chico, California Jan 29 2009 8:00P The DNA Lounge San Fransisco, California Jan 30 2009 8:00P The Watsonville Youth Center Watsonville, California Jan 31 2009 8:00P Casa de la Raza Santa Barbara, California Feb 1 2009 8:00P Modified Arts Phoenix, Arizona Feb 2 2009 8:00P Tba in Albuquerque Albuquerque, New Mexico Feb 3 2009 8:00P The Conservatory Oklahoma City, Oklahoma Feb 4 2009 8:00P The Monolith Tulsa, Oklahoma Feb 5 2009 8:00P Lifeblood Skateshop Tupelo, Mississippi Feb 6 2009 8:00P The Coup Clarksville, Tennessee Feb 7 2009 8:00P The Hideaway Johnson City, Tennessee Feb 8 2009 8:00P The Hazmat Myrtle Beach, South Carolina Feb 9 2009 8:00P Charm City Art Space Baltimore, Maryland Feb 10 2009 8:00P Tba in Doylestown Doylestown, Pennsylvania Feb 11 2009 8:00P Tba in Jersey Tba, New Jersey Feb 12 2009 8:00P Wescott Community Center Syracuse, New York Feb 13 2009 8:00P As220 (Welcome Home Show) Providence, Rhode Island (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 14th, 2007
2:53 pm	IM BAAAAACCCKKKK!!!! In your city...soon!! Jul 13 2007 7:30P AS220 Tour Kickoff Show! Providence, Rhode Island Jul 14 2007 8:00P Cafe Linco w/ Have Heart/Sinking Ships + More Montreal Jul 15 2007 8:00P US Tour w/ Have Heart/Sinking Ships Syracuse, New York Jul 16 2007 8:00P US Tour w/ Have Heart/Sinking Ships Brooklyn, New York Jul 17 2007 8:00P US Tour w/ Have Heart/Sinking Ships Brick, New Jersey Jul 18 2007 8:00P US Tour w/ Have Heart/Sinking Ships Richmond, Virginia Jul 19 2007 8:00P US Tour w/ Have Heart/Sinking Ships Columbia, South Carolina Jul 20 2007 8:00P US Tour w/ Have Heart/Sinking Ships Atlanta, Georgia Jul 22 2007 8:00P US Tour w/ Have Heart/Sinking Ships Birmingham, Alabama Jul 23 2007 8:00P The Compound w/ Have Heart/Sinking Ships Corpus Christie, Texas Jul 24 2007 8:00P Red Blood Club w/ Have Heart/Sinking Ships Dallas, Texas Jul 25 2007 8:00P US Tour w/ Have Heart/Sinking Ships Odessa, Texas Jul 26 2007 8:00P Sound and Fury Fest Ventura, California Jul 27 2007 8:00P Sound and Fury Fest Ventura, California Jul 28 2007 8:00P Sound and Fury Fest Ventura, California Jul 29 2007 8:00P Sound and Fury Fest ventura, California Aug 3 2007 8:00P Lakeland Community Ctr w/ Verse, Go It Alone, I Rise Kansas City, Missouri Aug 4 2007 8:00P The Boathouse w/ Verse, Go It Alone, I Rise Cedar Falls, Iowa Aug 6 2007 8:00P Keswick Democratic Club w/ Verse, Go It Alone, I Rise Louisville, Kentucky Aug 7 2007 8:00P Tba w/ Verse, Go It Alone, I Rise Indianapolis Aug 8 2007 8:00P Refuge Skate Shop w/ Verse, Go It Alone, I Rise Dearborn, Michigan Aug 9 2007 8:00P Roboto Project w/ Verse, Go It Alone, I Rise Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania Aug 10 2007 8:00P Cafe Alfishaway w/ Verse, Go It Alone, I Rise Washington DC, Washington DC Aug 11 2007 8:00P Tba w/ Verse, Go It Alone, I Rise Providence, Rhode Island More dates and info to come!!! Current Mood: Pumped! Current Music: WARZONE - dont forget the struggle, dont forget the streets (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 2nd, 2007
1:45 am	2006 to 2007 sucks that i couldnt come up with a cooler subject but thats ok. so here we are on the first night of the year 2007...im looking back at all the stuff that happened in the last 12 months...i remember exactly how i rang in the last year...sitting at the bar in smoky mountain in paradise california kissing my wife who was behind the bar while a bunch of 40 somethings sang bad kareoke. less than 2 months later because i was an idiot i was back in rhode island. in the 3 months i was here i got a job, an apt, make some amazing new friends and rebuilt bonds with my amazing old ones. i won back the only woman i want or need and had one of the best summers anyone could ever hope to have. two trips to nyc, bike rides, hang outs and cuddeling all night..fall came and a new apt and a new job with it. sadly due to me still being my own worst enemy i lost the greatest person to ever come into my life, possiably forever in november and the last two months have been a very sad and lonley time for me. i am getting better though...i have made it my goal to be the best person i can be...i am not a lying scumbag anymore...i will not ever be again. i have enrolled in school again and as of today i have health care coverage for the 1st time in 6 years. i am in our apt still and everyday i plan on making myself the best i can be. i am going to keep myself on the wagon of not being an asshole liar, i am working out every day and eating better. i am going to make myself smarter and get excellent grades and get myself a job which will make me happy and take care of the family that i want someday with the one girl i ever want to be with (yes it is you...). i am going to get the retarded tattoos removed from my hands and i will be an amazing person. 2006 had alot of ups and downs...heres to hoping that 2007 will be the best one yet.... Current Music: BANE - holding this moment (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 21st, 2006
4:56 pm	Sigh... I dont think I can do this this time... (Comment on this)
Friday, September 15th, 2006
2:51 am	attn nyc I will be inside of you today...if you are also in there you should call me... 401-533-8870 it might be 553...im not sure...stupid new number... XXX (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, September 10th, 2006
5:16 pm	Yeah... deja vue all over again... (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, July 10th, 2006
9:27 pm	Oh yes... I am still laive... if anyone cares give me a call. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, May 29th, 2006
12:33 am	My vahlhalah attack is quite dazzeling! Knights may be the most amazing movie you have never seen. the back of my neck is sun burned from the 3 hour hike we did today. good times all around. my dad makes the bomb french toast with italian bread...seriously..its like a european food bonanza in your mouth. i move out in 3 days...stoked so the least. a week after that the good times roll. fuck yeah. Current Mood: up beat Current Music: ASHELY PARKER ANGEL...yeah, im not kidding (Comment on this)
Friday, May 26th, 2006
11:24 am	Now i live for better days The sun came out yesterday...in more ways than one... Current Mood: hopeful Current Music: ZOLI (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 23rd, 2006
11:23 pm	May angels keep her safe tonight, Cause Im doing all I can... Today has just plain out been a shitty day. not for any particular reason...i have just felt so sad and bummed all day. i have had a lump in my throat since i woke up and a really bad feeling in my chest and i dont know why. at work i had a hard time keeping my mind on my job and afterwards i honestly felt like someone died. i wound up at spikes by myself eating alone and thinking about all the things that have been going on over the last 3 months and just hating myself for alot of it. i try and not dwell on the past anymore...dont try and think of what ifs and should haves...they dont help...but today was just one of those days i guess when it all got the better of me. one of those days i just start driving and make sure i have a siphoning hose in the car...buh. i really hope tomorrow is better. i hope i get to talk to someone. i hope someone makes me smile and laugh. i hope i get loved tomorrow...cause today felt like shit. Current Mood: pathetic (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 17th, 2006
1:27 am	So... I need a hug. I miss someone...alot. I work alot too... someone call me and then give me a hug and make me laugh. Current Mood: blah Current Music: THE DISTANCE - inspired by you (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 7th, 2006
2:35 pm	Sweet blasphemy... a little taste is all it takes to get the addiction back. peanut butter and banana sandwichs are the best thing god ever invented Current Mood: anxious Current Music: ALKALINE TRIO - good mourning (8 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 3rd, 2006
2:57 am	You've got to push it away... this is not what i want. this is not who i want. this is not where i want to be. god damn it... id sell my soul to fix this...if i hadnt already given it away... Current Mood: Bummed Out Current Music: TERROR - lowest of the low (Comment on this)
Friday, April 28th, 2006
4:30 pm	It feels so far from here... Tony Bennet said it best... "I left my heart in San Fransico..." my heart is retarded...thats all i can say. my retarded heart is yours. Current Mood: depressed Current Music: ALKALINE TRIO - crimson (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 25th, 2006
2:49 am	Rivers always says it best... "What's the deal with my brain? Why am I so obviously insane? In a perfect situation I let love down the drain. There's the pitch, slow and straight. All I have to do is swing and I'm a hero, but I'm a zero." Weezer is better than you...sorry. im not really sure what to be typing here...im just feeling really down in the dumps right now. try as i might...i cant get her out of my head...and never out of my heart. i miss her so god damn much. Nothing feels right anymore... XXX Current Mood: lonely Current Music: WEEZER - make believe (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 19th, 2006
3:51 am	You're the girl all the boys want to dance with, I'm just a boy whos had too many chances Sometimes I am amazed at the heart and minds capacity to miss someone. Its pretty incredible to be honest. You can spend all day running around and keeping busy with things that definitly require your ut most attention and yet the second you let your guard down, there they are, right in the fore front of your brain...and of course the second that happens the heart will take over and then comes the meloncholy and sadness that this person is not with you at that very second for you to crush aginst you in the most tender of embraces and smother with kisses and words of undying love and passion. So then comes out the cell phone (gotta love technology) and as the rings go by your heart rate picks up waiting for thier voice to reach your ears...at this point you will either reach thier voice mail (sadness ensues) and leave a stuttering, rambeling message that makes no sense but still somehow manages to convey both the fact that you love this person while at the same time that you are a total idiot in the ways of love and basic human speech. OR you will reach the person and have a stuttering rambeling conversation that will leave the other person confused as to weather or not you should be allowed to roam the streets unatended or unmedicated while you yourself feel like you have smahsed any and all hopes of this person returning any of the feelings you have yet at the same time thinking..."hey that went well..." it is about 4am and i just woke up from a nyquil induced coma...sorry for the rant Current Mood: curious Current Music: FALL OUT BOY - under the cork tree (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, April 17th, 2006
2:26 pm	This song will never end... All it takes is one word from you...and I am right back in the palm of your hand... Current Mood: indescribable Current Music: THE DISTANCE - inspired by you (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 16th, 2006
3:56 pm	Make this place look like Afganistan!!!! leave it to hatebreed to have the most brutal mosh call out in history. so lets see...weekend recap. thursday was spent watching adam and mike get more obliterated than any human being should be. then laughing my ass off as they drew all over adam when he passed out. a good evening spent as usual baby sitting haha. friday adam came down and we went to the shop were he got his stomache filled in finally. afterwards we went to as220 for the get killed/shred the past show. saw kids that i dont get to see often enough. when the show got out mike and i went to some random party that was pretty much a bust of people i didnt know. then chris and i went to an even more random party where we knew no one haha. just a bunch of random kids who looked at us funny. saturday matty and ryan and i went to CT for the the distance/hatebreed show. aside from dans house being on fire it was a good time. saw abunch of people i havent seen since i got back to the east coast which of course ment i had to do the explination of why im here and not with wife anymore. otherwise it was alot of fun. dennys afterwards was fun times and a good nights sleep was in order. today is easter. i do not like easter. XXX Current Mood: nostalgic Current Music: IGNITE - a place called home (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, April 13th, 2006
2:15 am	HUGS HUGS HUGS so i was thinking tonight, i miss hugs. i lived with Heather for a long time and it was nice to get hugs and kisses whenever. also people in cali seem to be more affectionete than here on the east coast, as i would get hugs from people pretty much all the time. since i have been back here i can pretty much count the amount of hugs i have gotten on one hand. its kind of a bum out. i dont mean to get all emo and whiney about it but damn it sometimes a guy just wants a hug! so yeah...from now on less hand shakes and high fives and more hugs damn it. Current Mood: curious Current Music: SINCE THE FLOOD - valor and vengance (8 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 9th, 2006
3:58 am	Im still not good for you sneaking into the coheed and cambria show was a good idea. missing avenged sevenfold made me bummed but oh well. hang outs all day with the best people, veggie chicken pizza is amazing, all the people who hang out at trinity and the phez make my nights. people who like to listen to every rumor and gossip mill story that they hear are fucking pathetic. yes i have done this and im sure i will do it again. but to scream at someone about and then do the EXACT same thing a week later is pretty damn lame i finally figured out what i want to get tattooed on me...now i just need some time and money haha. i still need a god damn hair cut. Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: THE DISTANCE - inspired by you (11 Comments |Comment on this)